Trust

A trust which had been build up over the year would just be destroy in the split second. Period.

Competition

oh yes, i don't think i deserve to comment on anything now, but yea, i really wish to say some of this stuff to my fellow friend.

Competition wasn't just about winning, winning is just a bonus, it just mean that you had work hard enough.
When theres a winner, there must also always be a loser. (yes, i dislike to be a loser too, but is there even a choice for us to choose from?)

Come on, cheer up my friend! Dun take win and lose so seriously, or rather i would just feel that it was the bonding in the team more important. So what if my team always win but yet my team always argue? I would rather be in a super bonded team and yet we always lost. It just dont matter that much.

SO CHEER UP RIGHT NOW! CNY IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER. SMILE :D

Hectic life

I really cant think of any more better title den this right now. It wasn't really due to the spam of homework, i still think it was acceptable, but it just the little minor thing that is going wrong in life. Yea, u might just say setback is normal in life, but how often do you people face it?

Just today, had took back my amath test. And obviously i had flunked it like shit. D: I had really work hard, just wanna pass the goddam test, but i just seem unable to do it. On top of that, what had make me real pissed was the stereotyping of people. It like seriously, get a life la. -.- So what if the guy is always good, WILL HE BE ALWAYS GOOD? No! But when someone else is trying to work toward a certain goal, he was just being stereotype that he wont be able to success. The feeling just suck ttm, i can ensure you.



Ok, that just for entertainment. :D Something that had made my day better!

Goals!

This goals wasnt the soccer the goal, and all the fans went "yay" BUT it will be my life goal.

I MUST do well for my o'lv to get my ass into HCJC by hook or crook! THAT WILL BE MY GOAL FOR THIS YEAR!

Ok, I HAD DONE IT, so i just move on with life to work toward my goal!

EVERYDAY IS GONNA BE A BRAND NEW CHAPTER OF MY LIFE.

edited: I didnt expect such a workshop to let me think about my life. I really didnt. Thought it had not really change me in a sense or another, but i knew what i wanted now, and some of the stuff which i had never treasure them enough in the past. :D SO, i shall go update other stuff, i mean i dun hav to show how much i love ea and single one of the ppl out there rite?

motivation workshop

Today workshop had really touched my heart, i mean like people with emotions will understand what is going on around the world. It just purely like, aiming at your vital point and just hit it. I think no matter how hard-hearted the person is, they will just give in, no matter what! And some question should i still remember up to now!

Who are you? (If u can answer this, u are a successful person le. LOL)
Why do i deserve to be here?

Oh shit, stm just work on me again. -.- Aiya dao. Anyway, i was suppose to write a letter to my parent, but apparently whoever had notice well enough, i wrote during dec holiday le. Im just pure lazy to rewrite it again. :X Now 3 words can just cover the whole thing!

Overall, it may be the same thing over and over again, but somehow u will still feel the pain in ur heart, which i totally got no idea why. LOL, aiya heck la, just gonna do my own stuff, and see what happen tmr nite. Let hope it just dun fail me. :D

Never give up!

Ok, i shall just type out the reflection i had done today. Just pure lazy to go into detail cause i think it will just be bored like some shit. :D 1 main thing i remember, must remember to praise people around you when they had done something good, be it major or minor.

Everything in life happen for a reason(don't it just sound familiar?), hence we shouldnt complain so much about what is going on around us. Without this event or incident from happening in my life, i wouldnt be who i am and where i am now. I should take every event as a learning experience, and try to improve myself.

Life is never easy for anyone, it was just full of up and down in many different way or style. IT is all depend on how the person is gonna face and handle it, is the key thing how it would change the person!

Event(5%)+ response (95%) = outcome!

EQ+ IQ= success!!! :D

she is just nice!

Just for joke!

READ THIS!!!

I, Goh Yu Xuan, of Hwa Chong Institution College Section, do hereby admit to the unintentional daoing of Shawn Teo in a MSN Conversation on Tuesday, 19th of January

Sorry, no offend to anyone :D

SCREWED!

I promise not to complain, but thing is definably not going in the way that i wanted. NOT EVEN NEAR! I mean like seriously, i had tried to control and it just suck like shit -.-.

1) My own privacy.
Why must people keep doing such stuff to know stuff, i mean like seriously, do u even know our relationship? Do u have to criticize me for no good reason, and are u too guilty to admit that you are the one im refering to? Just keep everything to yourself, make the world have peace!

2) Life sci competition
You had once scolded me on your blog YOURSELF for not doing anything due to my commitment, and u are complaining to each and everybody. And can you tell me what had you done so far? Like treating people like your dog (mark it, i hardly use dog) to do stuff? Come on la, you are the only one who can be buzy, the only one can have own free time la. Sorry lor, u win le. At most i will just FF from this competition and heck all the way.

3) First impression
Woots, Being a judgemental people just rock ttm. When people tried to change, no one had ever given him a chance. Come on la, even the prisoner get a second chance, why cant u guys just change your opinion la.

Ok, i felt i had ranted enough, the rest shall be at other place! :D
HAPPY WKEND PEEPZ!

HY: I NOE U ARE READING THIS, GO AND MUG NOW! NERDY FTW!

Edited:
I just spent like the past 2 hours in living room alone with my dad, and we had a small talk when we was eating. I mean it was like a motivation talk for my to strive for a greater height and make thing in my life success. I would really said that they do really care in their heart, but not on the appearance. Remember back then, when i was injury, no matter how small the injury can be, my dad will never failed to send me to the clinic or anywhere, just to get myself treated. I still remember the day when i got 0/25 for my amath test. I expected a scolding from my parent, like i didnt put in effort to study or wad so ever. But they didnt, they asked for the reason why i failed, mainly was it due to commitment or i was just unable to cope with it. Thinking back, i remember i was just dam bad mood, and i just dao the whole world, and living in my lalaland for that day. :X

Yes, i am aware that all parent do care for their children, but to wad extend? This wasn't like earthquake when it can be measure by using the magnitude. So yea, it hard to compare around with this kind of stuff.

But i am sure that i had the best parent in this whole universe! I AM SURE! My parent had always put their priority as me and my bro. Whatever they had done, they would think about us, ask for our opinion and stuff. There is no such word call force in them. They had always gave us freedom in most of the stuff, like what we wanted for our cca, what we wanted to eat and all the not.so.important stuff. To a extend, they only give me their opinion and suggestion when i was filling in the choosing of secondary school slip. Afterall, they will still respect our decision, and would never scold or wad. I guess my parent always had high mutual trust in us. They had always just let us do whatever we wanted, unlike the dead structure timetable. I really didn't appreciate them in the past, and at one point of my life, i think that they don't even care about me. I was wrong, they are just trying to let us grow up into a better person, let us handle our own problem and solved them. Im really glad that i had such parents! Im really happy about it!

There always a different in family and other stuff, such as bestie, friends, teammate, teacher or whatever! Family is the only one, which will follow you in your whole life, lighting up the path in front for you, borrow you a helping hand when you need them. Family is the only one who will never give up on you, no matter what you had done in the past, and they had a strong belief that you can do it. It just totally suck so badly, when others dont even believe you.

FAMILY! FATHER AND MOTHER I LOVE YOU! :D Hah, ok, i just got inspire to write that when i read something off the net. :X

Note to self: When people think that u cant do it, PROVE THEM WRONG, SHOW THEM YOU CAN DO IT! :D

nike! Just do it!

Math!

Woots, i got 13/20 for today emath test. Not bad for a start. :D a B3!! Still having hopes on my MSG 1.xx. I dunno la, but i shouldnt really feel happy, but im happy bcoz i know i had put in effort for this test! Yes, the feeling just rock ttm! :D

Ok, regrading to the HCL thingy, i think im gonna continue. Dao the B3 and move on with life (Let hope i have same result as kenn the whore!). I mean, i didnt really put in much for that, so yea cant blame anyone. So MOVE ON WITH LIFE AH!.

I gonna dao most of the stuff and START MUGGING NOW! Nerd.in.making :D wahh

failed.

Just got back my o'lv chinese result and it was a freaking B3. To think that i am rather confidence before i get back the result. Im completely stunned, shocked, angry with myself when i get back. Mayb it just a little bit more, for a A2. I just failed to get it. ROAR!! k forget about it, just hope im still able to take hcl ba. Pray for the best.

Remembering last monday, i was so dam excited for 630pm to come, and time just travel so slow. But now, it like super fast, and theres no time to feel sad anymore. The feeling is just totally dam different, and it suck so badly right now.

What done is done, nothing can change it back now. :(

K, like i said, i had drafted a post last monday, and i gonna post it out now with some stuff edited.

I had always waited this day(4/1) to come. I really waited it, and wanted it to come so badly, but it just dun seem to be coming any nearer. However, when the day had come, i totally was like quite stun at moment, cause i had only finish the present on the exact day 5pm, and it wasnt really well done. I hesitated for a moment if i should still pass you on the day. :X Ok, i did! But the present suck and ugly. After viewing it, just throw away pls.

Apart from there, the distance there just seem so short. I had been thinking what to tell you when we meet up, and what will happen and stuff. But to be exact, when we had meet, it just purely act accordingly. LOL, and thing wasnt as planned before hand on msn. Haha, but it was still nice and sweet of you coming RUNNING out of mac to meet me. :D Xiexie ni!

When i saw her today, the feeling in me is just super duper happy, it that kind of joy where no words will be able to describe it. It may be only a few seconds, and it mayb just be a simple words like hi, bye, thank you. Or just even a small action like a bow as a gesture to show thank. I appreciated it alot. I had nothing to regret to travel quite a distance just to pass the birthday gift on the exact day. At the exact moment, i really hoped that time would had stopped for us, but it didnt. D: But it was still nice to be able to meet her. :D Her smile is just like a sexyback! hah, and totally let me forget about everything and anything! Thank you so much.

To you: Thank alot for the meeting, and i am just surprise that u actually bow, i mean like U SHOULDNT DO IT. Hope you would like the present. :D All the best to you in your netball and studies. Last but not least really thank alot. ^.^ SUMOSUMO! (LOL, this just came so late. :X )



Ok, the rest of the update should be at a different place. Blogger just dont seem to have much privacy.

Edited: Thank alot to people who had comfort me in a way or another, i swear im not gonna feel this way, 1 yr later. Cause i know i would had put in effort to mug and tried my best. Not like today. Screw!!!!!!!

read something from that ass blog, but can i say that i would accept what you say, but can u just freaking have some ball and write the name on it? I dun even give a shit, i know myself and what im doing. Seriously, just get out of my life. -.-

Sprained hand

Oh well, my left hand was sprained on friday, and it as totally dam pissed when it totally restrict what you can do. Just like typing this post take me so long to do so. -.- That just totally suck ttm. On top of that, I still had my ankle and knee injury. How wonderful was that. I mean like a normal human but disabled in many way. Failed life.

This week had been rather fruitful, finished up all my homework except hcl. The feeling is seriously dam good, like every morning you can just go school and stone, instead of copying homework (should i call it sharing of answer?). Yea, so gonna kinda slack during weekend. Everyone deserve a break, don't they? :D

Ok, i had seen some of the stuff around me happening for this week, dont really wanna comment on it, before it just change into a whining place! So yea let carry on with life. :D MOVE ON!

Friday

It like WOAH! Finally it the end of this week, and this week is rather nice and fun. I got no idea why fun come in, but yea! LOL. Let have a update of my timetable.

Getting back o'lv chinese result on monday, and it like a live or death thing for me. Staying in HCL, or going back to normal express chinese class.

I just knew that my CCA is hard to get A, so it like super hard to minus 2 point now. Shit the school -.-

Gonna have test coming up next week. Kinda need to mug, and dao all the other stuff. :x EXCEPT the important one!

Have CCA openhouse today, and it just totally seem like nothing to me. I dun even give a damn to it right now. T&F just wasn't my forte or what, im just there for the sake of being there. :D

No junior from wdp had came to unity and die! Wee, good news :D

OKAY! like i had saved a note to myself, i gonna post some draft out by weekend!

It time to move on.. :D

Ok, i found out some bigbig thingy! So life should carry on and move on. YAY!

I will try not to on9 as much as before now. :D WEE, gonna be a nerd now.

Grow

I WANT TO GROW, I WANT TO GROWGROWGROW. Haha, just measure height and weight today.
179cm, and 56 kg. ZOMG, I just grew fatter and i only grow 1 cm. screw it! I wan hit 18x one! ROAR, the thingy got problem la. ASS!

Ok, i shall learn to update in LJ for more personal stuff now. :D wee!

An average school day is just a failed. Next wk onward got AEP, and wed got 7-9pm hist/ss lesson. WINNER! This would just greatly decrease my own free time, how bored was that.

OK, I SHALL GO FIGURE OUT HOW TO USE LJ NOW, AND SIGN UP FOR THE GODDAM BIO WEBSITE. WHICH I DUNNO HOW IT WILL HELP US.

OH YA, someone did notice my MIA in holiday! LOL. I tot no one will noe about it. Ok la, but somehow was really buzy that period of time, and some bitchy teacher keep saeing i got poor time management. screw it -.-

Holiday.

Argg, it still totally look like holiday for me la. :x Im still as slack as before. Let hope i really can kick the habit away soon. If not this year would be a ggfied year for us. Really needed to do well!

Ok, meet up with YGSP group, discuss, talk and know what to do le. K done!
Next week got quite alot of test coming along the way. -.- according to the whore (KENN!), i really need to perform well, if not i am dead. LOL.

Yay, just have a nap just now, was really great. It had been so long since i lasted have it. :x holiday it was just meng go out or play only. LOL.

OK, Hopefully this year is gonna be a happy year for me. Alot of stuff is going on this year. A rather impt (or not) one i guess. LOL.

And yeap, i juz wrote a super duper long reflection for myself, and a resolution list for the year! I gonna try my best to do it, I MUST DO IT! :D

First day of sch!

First day of sec 4 is just filled with laughter and admin stuff in the class room. Nothing much! Only had our first math lesson. Quite a nice relaxing day, but yet still in a holiday mood. :\

YAY, I HAD DONE ALOT OF THING I WANTED TO DO TODAY!!!
- I managed to finish faith b'dae present on time! But wasn't really well done. :X
HOPE U LIKE IT!
- I had cleared most of my holiday leftover homework in school alone today!
- I had my stuff planned and cleared today! yay!

I AM IN NEED OF A PLANNER! Be a neater person for the win.

Anws, HAPPY B'DAE TO FAITH AGAIN! HAH. Ok, let not be bias, i shall name those who i remember b'dae is today! Jiun loong, chong yee. HOLY, i only remember 3/8. :X AIYA WHO CARE! HAPPY B'DAE PEOPLE!

I shall really get to a study mood asap! And settle the handball stuff. Pls tell me wad time ur school end! XIEXIE.

note for myself: I NID ATTEND CCA NOW, TO PREVENT THE SCHOOL TO SCREW MI FUTURE!

2010!

Yay, today would be the last day of 2009 and i think 2009 wasn't a really good or bad year for me, except for some stuff which really turn my life 360 degree around. But yea, life still had to carry on no matter what happen ba. :D mayb i gonna write all the bigbig event happen to me in 2009. If i still remember them. LOL.

1) Faith cheong!
Haha, surprise to see her name here huh? she was the one who had really change my life this year, and we are TWIN! She was the one who really pull me up when i needed someone to do. She was the one who i can randomly hi-5 with over meaningful(less) stuff. She was the first girl who gave my a v.card (am i allow to post the picture here? ). :D YAY, thank you so much. She was the one who always spammed rubbish around on msn. She was the first girl who went study date with me. Guaikia. :D YAY for the pms girl, BUT SHE ROCKS. :) HAH.

edited: OH YES, I REMEMBER THE TIKO BIMBO thing. HEH, WHEN CAN UPLOAD PHOTO, I GONNA DO IT AGAIN! Coz it was dam freaking cool. LOL! AND u are the first freaking girl WHO i gonna do such a handmake gift for u. U SHOULD BE HAPPY AND HAVE THE HONOURED TO RECEIVE A F9 ARTPIECE. LOL! Let hope u will like it k? :D REMEMBER OUR PRESENT RULE? LOOK, READ, THROW! :D MUSCLE MUSCLE! HAH. And the mrs ang-yoong (k, sry max!) thingy hor! The zhangs sister who are both ass and came out with that. LOL, but it was real fun crapping with you! It really help to entertain me. :X wahah, i think i still got alotalot more to type. :X SO LET DO IT OTHER PLACE. :D if u urself wanna read den tell me! WAHAH











2) Unity sec
Yeap, u didn't see wrong, it unity sec. Ok, it had totally change my life upside down, when they close down volleyball. I mean yea, back den, i didnt really notice how much i like vball, but now i truly understand it. Vball is like slowly part of my life, but now it had been taken away, i believe u would be piss and angry as well right? It like your loved one gone suddenly. :(



Ok den, move on. Conduct rating for the year. This had totally screw me up ok? The school broke their promise, aiya big la big la, adult ma, i can do anything about it sia. Aiya, but forget it, LET MOVE ON.

3) sc'06!
I think this would be self-explain if u had read my blog in the past. :D so yea! CAN I SKIP THIS?



BUT DUN WORRY, I STILL LOVE YOU GUYS! But sorry for tonite, wouldnt be able to meet up with you guys for countdown. SORRY!

Actually, i felt dam lazy now. i would update the rest later! :D

4) Unity vball team!
I had really a great time with this time. They are the one who make me drop tears, laugh, get pissed off with and all sort of stuff. But the time that we had spent together was really wonderful, if time could go back, i might still choose unity as my team despite of all my complain. :D They are Tong hua, Javin, Yi jie, elvin, yong han, long jie, jun yu (grats on getting top for n'lv), norman and so on! Really thank alot people. I really grew up alot with you all. From all the serious-ness to the joke that we play on each other. :D thank you guys so much. UNITY, OUSH!

zomg, and i notice we dun even have a team photo together before except the one which we took for school. -.-!

5) Mr tan!
YES, YOUR EYE DIDN'T PLAY TRICK ON YOU. IT THE MATH TEACHER! Hah, i dunno why but i really felt his words had motivated me dam freaking lot, but still i am still not doing anything. He was the only one teacher who sit down and talk to us about our problem and try to help us solve it. It just like more of a friend after lesson den teacher, as he was a teacher who i really trust and i can confide too! He had always helped me alot before sec 3s EOY, but yea, my result is still sucky! GONNA work hard next year and achieve better result!


6) Sec sch best friend!
Wee, you guys are the one who had give my mental support whenever i need them. AND thank ben for the free morning ride, and all the going home time together. :D waiting for each other after lesson and doing rubbish before we go home. And yeap, remember the vball inter-class? i think that event had pull us even closer together! Sorry at the same time, i think i did something real stupid that time too. But i doubt anyone remember it! YAY!

Thank for all the outing and stuff. It really help to make us closer together! I will never forget u guys NICE COOKIES! It was really really dam nice to see such nice handmake present! It was nice, wonderful and tasty! PLS MAKE MORE!



I got so much more so much more to update, but picture seem unable to upload which piss me off! I SHALL UPDATE THE REST WHEN I AM FREE LE LA! Now, i shall go back to the FIRST 3, AND ADD MORE! zomg, time is running up for me to do stuff. -.- SCREW SCHOOL FOR STARTING SO EARLY!!!

edited:

7) 09s60!
YES, WITH THOSE JERK AND WHORE, they had changed me quite alot somehow, which i don't what happen. But seriously, they are really a group of people who is dam open with each other, and the class is totally bonded like siao. AND THE MOST QIAO THING IS, THEIR CLASS GOT SOMEONE WHO HAD EXACTLY THE SAME NAME AS ME. HOW COOL WAS THAT! But whenever i go, he wont be around :( didnt get to see him at all. Oww, dam sad! OK, SO NO MORE HONEYMOON YEAR LE! Everyone gonna get back into serious mood and mug! Haha.
AND DAM U GUYS FOR HAVING 1 MORE WK OF HOLIDAY MORE DEN ME!! AND CHRIS MENTION IT TO ME AGAIN! U ass!

Good thing always end fast. :(

Few more days, and we are all back to our daily BORED routine. Waking up at 5+, go school, come home mug, makan, sleep. Dam lifeless. Unlike holiday where u slack around and stone, and maybe do some meaningful stuff, and probably learn stuff we might not learn in school, or even some moral or values. :D

Ok, just get to know that ms kom is our new form-teacher, and that like mixed feeling, ggified. HAH. Apparantly, i had lost my bio tys, and that a wonderful news! Gonna get my reflection ready first. Dao wadever she gonna say. WOOTS.

Yes, this holiday I had done quite alot of stuff I wanted to do, and yet i had failed some of them. Example like the handball stuff, I really wanted it so badly, SERIOUSLY BADLY. Wanxin and gang should get what I mean. Let have a teamtalk real soon, and decide what we gonna do next about it. :D Organise friendly to crash the shit cheapo school ah! hah

Oh yea, someone finally did notice about something I like to do when i am posting on blog. :D HAH.

Okie donkie, i had to finish up the rest of my homework liao except for bio! If not i will be a deadmeat soon. AND SOMEONE WOULDNT GET HER PREZZIE ON HER B'DAE! HAH

HOME ALONE

Wahah, Im gonna be home alone soon in like not long later. LOL irony sentence, but who cares. Nothing much had really happened this holiday, except some stuff make me felt that I am just a lucky bastard. (not gonna mention which incident, but IT THAT ONE!)

So upon that, i came out with this myself. :X not sure was it from anyone anywhere or wad, but it just came to me like magic!


Trouble or problem is nothing to me now.
They will pass no matter if i cry or laugh.
Hence, i must live everyday to my fullest!

So the attitude of my life now, is gonna be happy.go.lucky! Let hope nothing piss mi off now. :D

But before that happen, i really hope some ass just get off me and stop irritated me, i got my own limit, and i am freaking sure i know what i am doing more then you do. You don't even have any blood relationship with me, get out of my life. :(

Oh yes, this holiday was 1 of my most busy holiday ever, it was a dam fruitful one. :D IT EARN ME LIKE 59hrs (or was it 58hrs) of CIP. I definably learn alot there. Organising a camp wasn't easy, i mean, i should'nt had complain so much about the sec 3 camp. Hah. :D Despite of the camp wasn't really smooth-going, but many of us still enjoy the learning experience. :D

Games day: It was the first year we work with the ITE people, and some of them are real friendly and keen to learn. I really got no idea what landed them into ITE. Was it just because of their learning attitude in the past, or they just chosen this road themselves. 1 of them had told me alot of thing about her life, and it really make us think hard about ourselves. :X thought i dunno you really well, but yea thank alot!

Outing: i think i really miss alot of outing with my sec sch friend, hope we do had some catchup when school reopen. I had never really cherish the time with them i guess. :X SO SORRY!

This holiday, spending tons of my time with junior make mi realise that no one had ever praise their own school in a good way, except for elite school. IT THE FREAKING BEST, WAD MORE CAN U EXPECT. Ok, so it time that i should just stop whining about school, and really work hard now. But some of the pain in the heart, will be stuck in there forever, nothing is gonna take it out of me. :'(

Wdp vball ♥

Despite of me unable to finish my whole primary school cca as vball. Teacher still asked me back for the alumni match, i must said that i had truly enjoy myself playing with those people. :D It so heartwarming to see so many alumni came back and play together. It really do trigger back some wonderful memory. And it really happy to see that all the junior had really improve freaking lot, and they might just overtake us anytime now. :D All the way for your vball career. :D

But the sad thing is that, liyang had injury my ankle as he had make mi unable to land properly. ASSHOLE!!! Fly to my court. :( Wahah.

Ok, Yesterday (12/12) was unable to go out to celebrate with nick due to financial crisis and other stuff. Hope u had enjoy your day. :D

YES, I AM STILL STUCK AT THE FIRST FEW SLIDE OF WHAT I WANTED TO DO. :( BADBADBAD